Loss

When you lose

your first 

baby, 

You lose 

so much

more

Than little

fingers

and toes. 

You lose 

your sense of

purpose, 

self, 

and hope

for the future. 

You don't have

another child

to comfort you 

Or to prove 

that 

you can do it 

again. 

All you know

is grief,

depression,

and failure. 

You couldn't 

even

have 

your first. 

Who's to say

you'll have

a second

or 

a third. 

All you know

is 

loss. 

But never

motherhood.